Impermanence of life, or the lack of anything remaining permanent, has been at the forefront of my mind since I took an amazing yoga workshop with Christopher Baxter last year. When he first mentioned the idea – I was nearly paralyzed by fear. I wanted to run home to my happy place (the front porch) and hold my loved ones close (Les and the horses).
Then my world shifted – while I was in the class battling my fears. Instead of being afraid of change, I needed to embrace it. Life WILL change, the good times as well as the bad time – NOTHING will be the exact same today as it will be tomorrow or even as it was yesterday.
I became liberated. If life is on an upswing enjoy the moment – it will change. If life is on a downturn, don’t despair, it will change.
It’s been months since I’ve taken that class and apparently I fell back into my same rut and needed a refresher. My life has changed tremendously in the past year (some for better – some for worse), but the negative way of thinking had returned. Until yesterday…
I heard that a friend and co-worker had died suddenly. She was only in her early 60’s, she ate well, exercised 3-4 days a week, and had been coming to yoga. No one saw it coming.
What had she left undone, thinking she had all the time left in the world? What was still on her bucket list? I’m sure it wasn’t teaching at a public school two days a week (we job shared). What would she have made sure she did – for the first time or the last time?
Who wants regrets?
I’m going to try to get back to a more positive and proactive way of thinking – life is by no means permanent…we gotta make the most of this very minute…who knows if the next minute won’t arrive.
In loving memory of Debbie Hoefer…